Update! I did it!

I did get off my butt this weekend and get moving.  I did the couch to 5k Saturday and Sunday.  I was sore as crap after the 1st day but I kept saying to myself, Philippians 4:13: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".  That really helped me push through.  I know that as long as I am doing something then I am doing more than I have been doing.  I know that by doing any physical activity is better than doing none. 

Today, I woke up in not the best of moods.  I am still tired.  My hubby said that I tossed and turned last night.  I am not grumpy, just blah.  I am sure you all have those days too.  I am trying to look forward and know that I am doing better.  Baby steps, right.

I did it! No More Excuses! and Stupid people

OK, so yesterday I went for a family walk.  I promised myself that I would at least get moving this weekend.  It was only about 3/4 of a mile, but hey I weight almost 300 pounds!  So this morning I woke up around 6 and I just said to myself, "Self (that is what I call me, Ha-Ha) NO MORE EXCUSES, get your butt up and get moving."  I got dressed and went outside and did day one of "couch to 5k".  I have never ran, unless I was being chased, in my adult life.  Things were going so well.  Whenever I felt like I had no energy to do the next jog, I just reminded myself that I cannot continue to give every excuse on why I cannot do something and JUST DO IT! 

OK, so I was on my cool down after my 3 mile walk/job when I ran into one of my neighbors out walking.  I said, "Good Morning" and she said, "So you are out for a walk this morning?"  At this point I really should of just looked at her and said, "No, I am sleeping, DUH!"  I informed her that I just finished my first intentional jog of my life.  I was so proud of myself and I guess I was kind of looking for an at-a-boy.  My pride balloon was so full until she brought out her huge needle and popped it by saying this...are you ready for this..."You know you should never run, it is bad for your knees.  Whether you are overweight or not it is not good for a woman to run."  OK, so are you thinking what I was...WHAT THE HECK!!!  All I wanted was, good job lard a$$.  As long as you are moving then you are doing something, right.  Oh no! 

Why can't people just be supportive?

Today is going to be a WONDERFUL day!

I am a firm believer that if you speak it, then it will be.  I am determined to make each and every day, from here on out, a wonderful day for me. I truly feel like a changed person.  I have a much brighter outlook on life.  I am working very hard to focus on me.  I know that their is going to be day where I feel like the walls are closing in on me, but I know that God is there the entire way holding my hand.  God is not walking behind me but with me.

I am going to start exercising this weekend.  I know that it is hot as crap here, but I know that I have to do something for me.  I have an elliptical in my living room, so I figure why not be on it when I am watching tv with my kids.  I have to remind myself that I have to take control of ME and JUST DO IT!  No more excuses.  I will give an update on Monday.  I am really hoping to have a good update to give.  My goal is to do some type of exercise each day.

Motivation?

I am sure that I cannot be the only person the struggle with motivation.  I struggle with motivation in all areas of my life.  I am not motivated to exercise, eat right, do my work, fold the laundry, clean the house,...  I could go on and on and on but I won't.  I pray everyday for motivation in my life.

I think it would be so much easier if I got up every morning with a spring in my step and I was eager to do it all.  How do you get your motivation?  I am open to suggestions. 

Is there anyone out there?  I need some accountability partners in my life.

I am #2!

Oh my gosh, it has been a log time since I have blogged, but I thought it would be good for me to have an outlet.  I guess this will be my journal.  My doctor always says that I need one so why not make it open for the world to read, right?  Here are the key points.  I will touch on each of these later in the week.

I have been going through a lot of changes lately.  My dear husband is still deploying.  It is coming faster and faster.  I am doing ok for now.  I do have my moments of mental break downs and crying spells, but today all is good. 

I have decided to have weight loss surgery.  I have struggled with me weight all my life.  After having the last 2 kids, I have been unable to get the weight off and now I am tipping the scales at around 300. 

I have been talking with God a lot lately and I feel that he has put on my heart that I really need to prioritize my life and start putting me seccond.  This is why from today forward, I AM #2!  This is my new moto.  I am going to make some severe changes in my life and I hope that there are going to be people out there that are going to help me along the way and make me accountable.