I am a bipolar pregnant woman!

Well it is officially the new year of 2012.  This was the first New Year's Eve I have even spent away from my DH in 17 years.  I fully admit there were a few tears last night as the ball dropped.  Nothing uncontrollable, but it was definitely hard.  We have the global plan for his phone and I was able to text him to wish him a Happy New Year, not that he texted back.  Where he is happy new year had already come and gone, but that did not matter to me.

What I would not do to hear his voice or to see him.  I miss him so much and I just pray that the pain gets easier to deal with.  At this point I feel like I am a pregnant bipolar.  One minute I am fine and the next I am balling like a baby and snapping at everyone I see.  I am just not sure how to deal.  I know, I know, I need to get busy, but can I really be that busy 24/7 for this not to hurt so much.  I really have to wonder.

I met a fellow Army Wife on Facebook the other day and I was astonished and the things that she was allowing to come out of her mouth.  She preceded to tell me that all Army soldiers cheat while they are deployed and mine would be no different.  WTH!  I was looking for support not someone to scare the crap out of me.  Why can't people just be supportive and not share the horror stories.  I want to be uplifted right now, not scared or more worried that I already am.