Stress

So the last couple of weeks have been a roller coaster ride and if I have not mentioned this before I HATE roller coasters.  I am what some would call...a...little bit of a...control freak.  Now don't judge me.  I am working on my control issues.  I have come a long way, I think. 

Anyway, the hubby dropped the, "I'm not happy" bomb on me 2 Sunday's ago.  Insert melt down #1.  Then, after much talking it turns out the same things that he is not happy about...guess what, I am not happy about either.  The biggest difference in all of this is that I have not blamed him for this.  It is so hard to balance everything.  I really just do not see how in the world people do it and make it look so easy.

I go to the doctor last week and the doctor tells me that my blood pressure has gone up.  I am thinking, "Duh!" My hubby is going through something and I do not know what to do.  I feel like I am losing grip on my life and it is spinning out of control and I have no way to stop it.  I know there has to be more people out there feeling the same way.  Insert melt down #2.

I could go on and on, but I will not bore you.  There were 2 other big bombs and one I will share now.

The hubby went to the doctor last week too.  His doctor has made an appointment for him to get a head CT.  The scan is tomorrow and I am worried.  I am some what of a worry wart anyway, but I know something must be really wrong, because my hubby complains about nothing.  I just pray for our marriage and our health.